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Sunday, June 20, 2010

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life story in a nutshell

I try not to let my personal beliefs interfere in my thinking . except for RAP ,Oath keepers ,I have little faith in everything else except God witch I’m too scared to let go of Him . I pray all the time . You got to believe in something . However I do not expect anyone or anything to save me . I know the key to my survival is knowledge.It is what I lack the most of . Balanced out with my givens, My farm safe from earthquake, and nuke disaster in DC.

I have food /water. I am lacking gas masks and fallout shelter.I have guns.

Seems too late to read a book but I would like to share my story of pain in life that I hold no hate against.

I was born with a lazy eye. Marked and made fun of everywhere I went as a child. So my childhood was a nightmare . As I grew into a man the ridicule stopped but the injury to me lasts to this day.Then a tree fell on me crushing my 12th thoracic vertebra into a pie-shape. Over the years I was afraid I would lose the use of my legs someday. Well when the disks finally deteriorated my spine fused into what was called by my chiropractor a natural spinal fusion . I will not lose my legs but the pain I have suffered is unimaginable over the last 30 years. Every woman I loved I have lost.I have lost half of my hearing and tinnitus rars through my head 24/7 I have no relationship with my daughter who is 33 years old now . Her very lifestyle was threatening to my 8 year old son.

I was totally alone until I came to this room . Here I am treated with respect and learning so much I cant even explain .

Somehow over the years of pain and suffering to my body and mind I am sane and aware . I think.

My point is that I hold no one or one thing responsible. I have forgave anyone and anything that may of had a hand in the life I have experienced.I have forgiven myself God and all other men and women for any part they may of had to my tragic life.

I feel that my heart was just so damn good from birth ,and to this day still is,I have regrets but they do not overshadow my my present thinking. My goodness has to be from karma from past lives it is so strong .

I really understand the guy in the book BUN .I believe that Bun’s (Boone) approach to life is the key to surviving that which lies ahead.

There is no way forward if you are stuck in the past.

As I said before any advice from the good people in this room will be gladly accepted .

Finally I believe there is a reason I have had these experiences I believe it is so I can have a frame of mind to get through these times and if so blessed, help others.

There is a reason I have full use of my legs . There also is a reason I am half deaf .There is a reason for it all . I also know with the technology that will be provided to the planet in the future I will have all problems healed.

As for the future I predict that many Americans will die before the dark beast falls. Unless a great and loving God intervenes . It is my hope that all of you survive . As for darrylukes proclamation About the money for hits against the dark , It just goes to show that it will take money to get anything done . So I hope we have good rich people in this world that will finance the contracts on the elitists.Meanwhile buy a gun and plenty of ammo. Have food and water for 3 months ,gas masks etc.and Pray.

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